I don’t think I can understand what people mean by,” I need to learn to share my feelings”. I think I do the best that I can, but it seems no matter how much I try, it’s never enough. As if my attempt were pointless and meaningless. Only if you could understand that, everyday I try my best, and my best is never enough for you. When I hear those words, a part of me feels like it’s being shattered. I know I’m not very good at it, but trust that it’s the best I can. So I apologize for the lack of emotions, the lack of sharing, the lack of my ability. But just so you know, I love, I care, I hurt, I feel, I cry, I brake. I have gone beyond my ability to love, share, and compromise for you. Unfortunately it’s not enough, and I fear one day, all you will see in me, is all things you cant have from me. You see all my flaws and everyday it’s those that you bring up, one day it will be the only thing you see in me, and I fear that day.
-Note To Self